Carrie Faery's Story

🌷 Ashes, and Then Light

 

After my divorce, I told myself I was done with love. I had my two beautiful kids and a long list of reasons to focus only on them. My ex-husband’s drinking and addictions had left deep scars, and all I wanted was peace.

Then one night, out of boredom and maybe a flicker of hope, I downloaded a dating app. His profile said he wanted “a woman who’s smart and can spell words like definitely.”

Challenge accepted.

I wrote the first message:

“Hi. I’m dephanantely interested.”

He laughed—and somehow, that typo started a story.

He was funny, handsome, and attentive—the kind of guy who texted “Good morning, beautiful” before I’d even found my coffee. After years of walking on eggshells, that simple attention felt like magic.

He didn’t send flowers or sweep me off my feet, but he made me feel seen.
We took a small beach trip, shared stories, and for a moment I thought maybe this was what calm love looked like. Looking back now, I can’t believe I didn’t expect—or even need—more. I was just starved for gentleness.

Before long, he was spending most nights at my house “just until he got on his feet.” He talked about starting a pawn-shop business with a friend, and I believed we were both rebuilding.

But love built on comfort instead of compatibility doesn’t stay comfortable for long. He grew distant, moving through the house like a ghost—depressed, avoidant, impossible to reach.

Right before Spring Break 2018, I asked him to take me out to dinner, just to reconnect. Instead, he picked a fight so fierce it stunned me.
I had already arranged for my kids to stay with their dad and grandparents so we could spend time together, and instead he packed his bags and went to Palm Beach with his friends—leaving me alone in a house that suddenly felt too quiet.

From Palm Beach he called to say it was over.
It hurt. But a few months later he came back, full of apologies and “I can’t live without you.”

We tried again. For a while it was better—until it wasn’t. The same patterns returned, and by 2020, just three weeks before the accident, we ended things for good.

And then everything changed.

A few weeks later, my kids were in a car accident with their father. He’d been drinking. My daughter Laura Fae, just six years old, died on impact. Her cousin—born the same day as Laura—survived with a broken back and neck. My son made it, though with a traumatic brain injury that turned our world upside down.

The sushi guy came to the hospital. He cried with me, held my hand, and made promises I needed to believe in that moment. Maybe he meant them; maybe trauma made us both reach for something that felt safe. For a while, his presence was the only thing that quieted the ache.

But life has a way of spinning its own kind of magic.

Exactly one year later—on the same date I lost Laura—I gave birth to Ellie. She is autistic, radiant, and full of light. She doesn’t speak yet, but when she laughs… it’s Laura’s laugh—the same bubbling joy that used to fill our home.

Sometimes she flaps her hands when she’s happy, and I swear it’s like she’s waving between worlds, carrying pieces of her sister’s spirit with her. I can’t explain it, and I don’t need to. Love never really leaves; it finds new ways to speak, even without words.

My son is doing amazing now—strong, funny, and the best big brother to Ellie. Together, they’ve rebuilt my heart in ways I never thought possible.

I don’t think the sushi guy was my prince because he recently left me. He was just the nearest person when my castle caught fire. And for a moment, I mistook the smoke for magic.
But maybe the real magic came later—through the little girl with her sister’s laugh who reminds me that even the deepest loss can echo with love.

🕯️ Moral of the Story:
Some endings are really beginnings in disguise.

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